Day 2: Identity – Who Does He Say I Am?

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As I crawled into bed that night, my mind raced.

Tonight couldn’t have gone worse. So much for trying to make a good impression!  I can’t believe she said that to me!  And in front of everyone!  This is so humiliating.  Doesn’t she know who I really am? 

I stared at the ceiling.  Unable to go to sleep.

Obviously she has no idea what kind of person I am, because if she did she would never say things like that to me! 

Anger, pride and resentment welled up within me.  I looked over at my husband, who had long since drifted off into a peaceful slumber.  I envied his ability to shake things off.

I’ll just have to prove to her that I’m not the person she thinks I am.  I refuse to be misunderstood!

Suddenly, a sick feeling ran through me and then sat in my gut like a rock.

But what if she is right?  What if she does see who I really am?  Is that how people see me?  Is that what defines me?

And just like that the pride and resentment transformed into fear and embarrassment.  My frantic desire to redeem myself was answered by a voice of shameful defeat.

I rolled over and forced my eyes to close, convinced that if I did not try to remove this perception people had of me, it would be all I am ever known for.  I subconsciously determined to hide this side of myself, because if people saw my shortcomings than they must reflect who I really am.  And if that is who I truly am, than what would that make me?

A fraud.

And with that last thought, I fell asleep.

Identity.  Significance. The ability to be unique.

These are all these things that we constantly chase after.  We live in a world that is repeatedly exhorting us to discover ourselves and pursue our self esteem.  Our lives become a frantic pursuit of finding our place in this world.  We want to be known for something – our personalities, wealth, culture, appearance, personal achievements, or our associations.  Whatever it is, we at some point in life decide that this is who we are -this is the box that we fit into.

We seek after ways to discover who we really are.  We want to know what makes up our DNA.  So we take personality tests, spiritual gift classes, and fill out all the little boxes on our social media profiles that showcase what special “individuals” we are.  This all brings satisfaction until the moment when the identity that we have built our life around fails us.

Perhaps you’ve always perfectly performed your accomplishments, and then you made a mistake, or maybe you’ve always been thin, and now it’s getting harder and harder to maintain that.  Maybe you are losing your youth, or a significant relationship, or you are switching careers.  Whatever it is, whenever we lose something that has always identified us, we often times are left not knowing who we really are.

Without Christ, this pursuit of finding our identity is a completely hopeless endeavor!  Every time I try to find significance in myself and my own abilities, I am left feeling weary and defeated!  Why is this? Shouldn’t self discovery produce the opposite effect?

If I wasn’t fundamentally flawed and an ever changing individual than it probably would.  But that fact remains that I am.  And so are you.  We are all fundamentally flawed and do not have a self worth esteeming.

Psalm 14:3 says, “All have turned away, all have become corrupt.  There is no one who does good, not even one.”

And Romans 3:23 says, “For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.”

Sound like bad news?  Definitely not good for the self esteem, right?  This is true, until we recognize that God does not define us by what we do, but instead, by what He did for us.

“But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a people for his own possession, that you may proclaim the excellencies of Him who called you out of darkness into His marvelous light.  Once you were not a people, but now you are God’s people; once you had not received mercy, but now you have received mercy.”  1 Peter 2:9-10

For years, I don’t think I realized how much a strong understanding of who I am in Christ affects the way I see myself!  My identity has often been about who I have made myself to be, but here’s the reality:

I don’t get to say who I am!  Nothing I do or say or am can define me.  And nothing anyone else says or thinks about me has the power to define me either.  Only He can say who I am.  And just who does He say that I am?



Belonging to Him.

I think that matters a lot more, than any misconceptions, failures or inconsistencies I or anyone else can say about myself.

So here is your first challenge!

Reflect and Respond

“But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a people for his own possession, that you may proclaim the excellencies of Him who called you out of darkness into His marvelous light.  Once you were not a people, but now you are God’s people; once you had not received mercy, but now you have received mercy.”  1 Peter 2:9-10

Think about and write down what you have always sought to identify yourself with.  What are some things you think define you?  How does knowing what God says you are make a difference with how you see yourself?

This post is the second post in a 31 Day Series titled, Discovering How God Makes a Difference.  To read the rest of the posts in this series click here.  

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13 thoughts on “Day 2: Identity – Who Does He Say I Am?

    1. You’re so welcome, Allyson! And thank you for both reading and commenting on my post! It is so hard to not define ourselves by what we do isn’t it? God has been really teaching me about what His grace truly means this year and its completely changing my life! I hope you come back to continue this series with me!

  1. This sounds like something I could have written! I have been trying to remind myself that I am a daughter of a King. Thats the example I want to set for my daughter, not someone who puts their confidence in what other people say.

  2. Thank you for sharing – beautiful post! I’ve been thinking a lot about this. I’ve been studying the enneagram and Richard Rohr’s teachings – the true self versus the false self, and how our gifting can also be our curse. I look forward to reading more from you!

  3. I love this, Heather. This is something He has been drumming into my core for the last couple years, and the breadth of it is so vast that I am still venturing into all that it means for us. I LOVE that you are talking about it here…

    1. It’s so in the core of who I am as well! I’ll be honest and say it is such a struggle, but I am also so passionate about the journey He has me on! So glad that you are a part of this blogging journey with me!

  4. i love you and your heart for God! This is a topic all of us as women struggle with, finding our identity in Christ and not what the world says we are.

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